New

Lots of new stuff here for us:

Izzy finally has her first tooth! It poked through at the beginning of the month then disappeared a day or so later but now it’s well and truly back. Yay!

Her crawling is well and truly taking off (as I am writing this she is chasing the cat very determinedly!) and she is pulling up and cruising like a pro.

We are entering a new phase of life as I am returning to work 2.5 days per week starting next Monday. Izzy has started nursery and has attended 3 days this week. She has settled in really well although she still won’t take any milk at all from a bottle. At the moment she’s getting by on a bit of juice during the day then feeding a soon as she gets home. She’s already less clingy with me and playing more independently. It is so hard dropping her off and leaving her there though, especially when she was crying this morning.

I am tempting fate by saying this but she has been sleeping very well, 10 or so hours with one quick feed (or if she goes to bed earlier 2 feeds). She is now going to bed around 7.30 and waking at about 7. I think nursery tires her out!

Crawling

Izzy finally started crawling yesterday. Properly crawling forwards on hands and knees. It’s so cute to watch, every movement to precise and methodical. Bless her, she’s so proud of herself for being able to get to where she wants to go. I’d better get those stair gates ordered pretty sharpish!

Taking the monthly photos is so much harder now…

9 months old!

9 months have passed since my beautiful princess was born and she has now been an outside baby for longer than she grew inside me. At 9 months old, Izzy weighs 16lb 14oz (25th centile) and is 69.4cm long (50th centile). She has just moved up into 6-9 month clothing, although they are still a little big on her and as soon as the current pack is finished will be moving up to size 4 nappies. She is a petite little girl, delicate and beautiful.

She is becoming more and more active by the day. Rolling front to back and back to front with ease, pulling up to standing when she has good leverage (eg. in her cot or on my legs/clothes). She is working hard on crawling and I am sure it won’t be long before she gets there.

Verbally we have 2 clear words – mama and baba. Despite our best efforts dada is still escaping her! (I can’t say that I’m not a bit proud of that!).

She eats 2-3 meals a day (she often refuses breakfast), happily taking both finger foods and purées. She is easily bored with foods though so you cannot give her the same things over and over. Her favourite foods are blueberries, toast and spaghetti bolognaise. She dislikes eggs (both boiled and scrambled) and is not all that keen on cheese or potato). I think that her eating will improve quite rapidly once she gets teeth as her inability to bite and chew things properly really does seem to be hindering her now.

The biggest change this month for her will be starting nursery – she has a 2 hour trial with me present on Monday 13th February, followed by a 2 hour trial on her own on Wednesday 15th February, then she starts properly on Monday 20th February. I am sure she will be fine. She is a happy, sociable baby who I think will benefit considerably from the constant activity and attention at nursery, not to mention the company.

Now for photos:

Sleep, nursery and other things

Oh dear, my resolution to keep blogging regularly is already falling by the wayside.  Sorry!  So whats been happening?

The main reason that I haven’t blogged much is that since around about the beginning of December is that I have been living in a plague house.  Izzy has picked up one bug after another and this has meant that I have a) not been out all that much and b) not had all that much sleep.  Thankfully she seems to be OK at the moment, although she is teething which means that her sleep is still pretty disturbed, albeit a lot better than it has been!

One thing that we have managed to sort out is her day sleep.  Izzy now has two regular naps, around 11 am and around 3 pm for anything up to 2 hours at a time IN HER COT!  She is a lot better rested and a lot happier.  The only problem is that breaking her habit of falling asleep on me means that she doesn’t nap so well when we are out, although this could be because she is so distracted by everything going on around her.  Of course all of this is likely to change when she starts nursery in a couple of weeks (more on this in a moment).

I am still attending Weightwatchers each week and have managed to get back to almost where I was before, less half a pound.  I am now exactly 14 stone (196 lbs) which is 4 stone (56 lbs) lighter than I weighed at my absolute heaviest, and 4 stone heavier than I would ideally like to be.  I will be seeing my doctor shortly about going back on Metformin which should hopefully help.

I mentioned Izzy starting nursery.  My maternity leave has now come to an end and on 27th February my annual leave will also be used up meaning that I have to return to work.  I am going back on Mondays, Tuesdays and Wednesday mornings and Izzy will be attending nursery for 3 full days from 8 am to 6pm.  Most of me is really really dreading it, but a small part of me is kind of excited, I get to be me again, not ‘Izzy’s Mummy’.  Not only that but on Wednesday afternoons I will get to have me time, no work, no Izzy, nothing, I can just relax.  I am trying to make the most of my last 2.5 weeks left until Izzy starts nursery, but it is already flying by and there are so many things that I need to fit in during that time!  (Izzy is starting nursery the week before I return to work giving her time to settle in before I go back so I hopefully won’t be such a wreck on my first day back!)

So thats it really, I’ll try not to leave it so long between updates next time!

Weekly Weigh In – Week 19

So I know it’s been a little while since I last updated on my weight but with Christmas and illness I kind of fell off the wagon resulting in a total gain of 7lb. This week however I well and truly got back on track!

• Starting weight: 14 st 6.5 lb
• End weight: 14 st 3 lb
• Week 19 loss: 3.5 lb
• Total loss to date: 12.5 lb
• Weight left to lose till target of 9 st 7lb: 4st 10 lb

This last week I have changed up my diet again. I have gone back to basics and am making sure that I way and measure everything. I am also increasing the amount of fruit and vegetables that I am eating, and using them to try and fill myself up rather than other higher calorie foods. I aim to lose the remaining 3.5lb of the 7lb that I gained over the next 2 weeks. In the slightly longer term I am hoping to have lost another stone (14lbs) by the time I return to work in 6 weeks time (taking me down to 13st 3lb or as near to that as I can). Time to get working!

8 months old!

My beautiful girl is 8 months old. She now weighs 16lb 10oz (between 50th and 25th centile), is still in size 3 nappies and mostly 3-6 month clothing, although we have had to pack away a few of the smaller sized bits and get out some 6-9 month clothes.

Over the past few weeks Izzy has had a verbal explosion. She frequently babbles ra-ra-ra and ba-ba-ba and on Christmas Day began saying Ma-ma (this is normally kept for when she is upset and is wailed at me, which really tugs at the heart strings!).

She still dislikes being on her tummy, but has begun launching herself forward from a sitting position to grab for toys or items that have taken get fancy. After reaching them she invariably flips straight back over on to her back. I know that big things are about to happen though as on the day Izzy turned 8 months she rolled back to front for the first time, and in the few days since has started pulling up and walking when you hold on to her hands!

This month has been one filled with illness, suffering with 2 colds and a nasty chest infection which required antibiotics to treat. Unfortunately this has meant that sleep and Izzy have not been the best of friends and Izzy has spent a lot of time in Mummy’s bed, something which really does need to be knocked on the head ASAP.

Izzy is still not a big eater. She will try most foods and rarely spits anything back our, however the quantity of food that she has is still very small. Breakfast is the hardest meal and often she will not have anything at all. Lunch is hit and miss, sometimes she will have some, other times nothing at all. Dinner is always her best meal. We try to do a mix of purées and finger foods and this seems to work pretty well. I am not really too concerned about her eating at the moment as she is still breastfeeding fairly often and will receive a lot of calories and nutrients from this, once she starts nursery (in 8 weeks, eeeek!) I am sure that we will see an improvement as she will hardly have any breastmilk at all.

It’s hard to believe that on 4 short months she will turn a whole year old, it seems like yesterday that she was a tiny helpless newborn…

Reflection on birth

I don’t think that I have posted this before, if I have I apologise, blame it on ‘baby brain’.

It’s been 8 months now and I am still really struggling with coming to terms with Izzy’s birth. Prior to getting pregnant I had always had this vision in my head of having as natural a birthing experience as possible. Minimal intervention, preferably in water. Through pregnancy I tried to be more realistic. I told myself that I would not have any expectations of birth and therefore I could not be disappointed by my experience. Of course though I thought this was how I was approaching things, I apparently didn’t.

Being induced for me was not a big deal. I was warned that induction fails in some cases but I think I was so focused on not being pregnant anymore (by this point I’d just had enough) that I did not really heed the warnings.

I have so many what ifs going through my head… What if I had chosen to have the elective Caesarian at 39 weeks as I was offered, would I be feeling the way I do? What if I had allowed nature to take its course – would I have gone into labour naturally? Would I have been induced at 40+12 weeks? Would induction have been successful at that point? Or would it still have failed? And then there is all the questions about labour itself. Would I have managed a minimal intervention labour? Would I have struggled to cope with the pain of labour? Would I have ended up with a Caesarian section anyway? Would I still feel this way if there was an actual medical need for the section e.g. placenta praevia?

And so on it goes… What if? Questions that I will never ever know the answer to. So what happens next time? There are 2 choices. I can opt to have an elective section at 39 weeks, or I can try and have a VBAC (Vaginal birth after Caesarian). The first option seems the most straightforward. At around 39 weeks pregnant on a pre-arranged date, I could go to the hospital and have my baby. If I have SPD again this means that I get to have my baby earlier than I might otherwise, which would mean less pain and discomfort. The next baby could be bigger than Izzy was (if I had gone 2 weeks over as it seems likely that I would have, then Izzy would have been over 10lbs), as second babies often are, in which case a Caesarian might be the better option. And given that I went overdue with Izzy, the likelihood is that I would go over again and induction is not commonly advised for VBAC patients, therefore again a Caesarian would probably be the end result. So even knowing all this, why am I still yearning to try for a VBAC next time?

I know that I am very lucky. That Izzy arrived with no complications, that I recovered easily and quickly from my Caesarian and that it really was the best option for me at the time, however I still feel cheated, like I have missed out on one of life’s truly powerful experiences and I just cannot seem to make my peace with that…

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012!

Happy New Year!

2012… Wow, I cannot believe how fast the past year has gone.  2011 was probably the best year that I have ever had.  Of course the main highlight of the year was meeting my beautiful daughter.  She really is amazing.  I love her more than I could possibly have imagined and watching her grow and develop makes me so proud.

As well as having Izzy I have made a number of wonderful friends who have helped to make my life feel a lot more complete.  We are happy and healthy and I cant wait to see what the next year holds for us.

At the beginning of the year I made some resolutions (see post here), and I have been quite pleased with how I have got on:

To be a better housewife – I hate cooking and cleaning and all that stuff,  but I endeavour to try and improve my cooking and to stay on top of the cleaning  – Well I haven’t done at all badly with this.  We have cooked meals almost every night and the cooking is now split a lot more evenly between me and J, I do still need to eat a more varied healthy diet though and that will be one of my resolutions for 2012 (see below).  As for the cleaning, well I am pretty happy with how I have got on with this.  The house is pretty much always tidy and clean, although this is a lot easier to do now that I am home full-time.  In 2012 I need to maintain this whilst also working part-time which will be a lot trickier.  Izzy is starting nursery the week before I go back to work in order that she can get fully settled in, and I can start work without worrying about how she is getting on.  During that week I hope to do a deep clean of the house, to get it into really good shape so that it is easier to keep on top of things in the limited time that I will have after work.

To lose weight – I want to lose any weight that I have gained whilst I am pregnant, along with some of the extra weight which I was carrying pre-pregnancy - Another success!  I lost all my pregnancy weight, plus a further 8.5 lbs, taking me down to 195.5 lbs, my lightest weight in around 10 years.  Over the Christmas period I have put some weight back on but am determined to get back on track and this year I WILL get to goal.

To become more environmentally friendly – I plan to breastfeed, use cloth nappies, and I also need to recycle more - A partial success.  I am still breastfeeding and I use cloth nappies some of the time (usually when I am home all day) however I don’t recycle at all and this is another goal for 2012.

To blog more.  I have been doing pretty well with blogging weekly.  I want to try and keep this up.  I love looking back and seeing where I was a few months ago, and can’t wait till it becomes a year ago or even a few years ago… I  want to remember as much of my pregnancy and then Little Bean’s childhood as possible! - Well for the most part I have done this.  I blog at least every 2 weeks, sometimes more often and I am already enjoying looking back over my previous posts.  I hope to keep this up for the foreseeable future!

So what do I hope to achieve this year?

• Start recycling wherever possible
• Get to goal weight (140 lbs)
• Find a new job (hopefully as soon as possible after I return)
• Make Izzy a patchwork quilt
• To become more health conscious, to eat more healthily and to make sure that Izzy has a varied healthy diet

So thats it!  I think that is plenty to be going on with

 

Merry Christmas Everybody!

I know I’ve been a terrible blogger and I promise to get back to posting more regularly in the new year, however I just wanted to take a few moments to post.

I have had an exhausting and emotional couple of days (in short, a friend lost her 38 year old husband to a heart attack on Wednesday (they have 2 kids, a 9 year old son and a daughter who was born end of June) and J was rushed to hospital yesterday) but I am so thankful for everything I have – a loving husband, a wonderful, beautiful daughter, supportive friends and family. It is easy to overlook these things but I am actually very very blessed.

So on that note, I’d like to wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a fantastic 2012!